it's easier to think that i dun have a choice

dunno when was the last time i blogged. can't seem to think of anything to say... but since someone says I'm emo, I'll blog about happy things just to show that I'm not.

went out with char, shernli, anysia, and wanning today... ice-skating... lol... funny... my hand almost, almost, got wrenched off by shern li. thankfully i still have it now. me and charmaine were looking at how some guys doing some kind of breaking thingy which includes a spray of ice on whoever is in front of them and we thought it was cool. not the spray ice on other people part but the braking part... we wanted them to teach us, but we weren't brave enough to ask cuz charmaine said later they think we trying to kao them... @.@ ended up we just went wherever they went and see how they do it from afar. because you know la, guys can be pretty vain and narcissistic when girls are around them. haha... and shernli also said that guys who are pros at ice skating are mostly very yeng and 帅. hehe... so guys, if you want to pikat shernli, go learn how to skate. *don't kill me, shernli*

then after skating we went to eat lo of course. spent so much time walking around aimlessly because we really don't know what to eat. and also got some other problem, aka financial problem... swtnya. if students also can have financial problem without being responsible for shelter and bills and food, adults sure die ady. not to mention that they need to work and we don't (some of us, at least).

crap!! i'll never be in sunway pyramid from 1pm to 2pm ever again! that was freaky! so last minute and totally unexpected. i was shaking and trembling and feeling weak... fortunately i was sitting down... but come to think of it now, it is kinda cool. and if you pay me, i don't mind doing it again. as long as no one bothers to pay attention to me. =D

after that, we went bowling! to be more accurate, they went bowling, i just watched. haha... don't really like bowling and i was tired for some reason. i didn't have the strength to lift the heavy bowls, let alone swing my already tired hands (thks so someone) towards the so-far-away pins. but, it was also fun watching them. =)

thank all four of you for today.

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Millions saw the apple fall, but Newton was the one who asked why.

i'm too good. haha...

conscience is a good thing because it tells you what is right and what is wrong. but i think my conscience is too strong (lol). and it is very very annoying because i feel so guilty when i do something I'm not supposed to do or don't do something I'm supposed to do....

like studying. ARGH!!! i try hard to improve myself and study more and not be the satisfied-with-a-C xiaoying, but it's not working!!!! because the thing is, i am satisfied with a C. see how low my standard is...

i always tell myself that i must get an A for blah, blah, blah, and blah subject the next exam, but after studying for awhile, i get so fed up i think, 'what's wrong with a C?'

no determination...that's just me.

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phobophobia -- the fear of being afraid

owh cool...

so happens there is a laptop here in my grandma's house... and you know, the internet is more interesting than some khalifah. so, here i am, not studying but playing. hehehe...=D what happens to my plan to study? *poof* gone. but the good thing is that my mum thinks i did study, cuz i was holding my sejarah book on my lap all the way here in the car just now. although it was on the same page for the whole journey. >.< she doesn't need to know that.

i drove my dad's car just now. hahaha...must practice since i'm gonna get my lisence next year. yes!!!! i'm so excited! but still gotta wait until my bd.

ahem

if i can find photos of today's gathering then I'll post it up la, but if cannot find then don't have lo...
i don't know what to say about it actually...quite speechless... around 20 person went, and out of them all, i only talked to nicole, jiahao, wilson, weiyine and chunkit a little. the rest... don't know what to talk about.

oh yeah, i just realised that my bro went for a camp this morning. no wonder i haven't seen him for the whole day until now.

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If you think that something small cannot make a difference, try going to sleep with a mosquito in the room.

blah

going out for a gathering later... i haven't meet my primary school friends for like donkey years and i wonder if we will still have a topic to talk about. i was never good at talking or making friends or starting a conversation or making other people feel comfortable around me. i guess if we click, then we click. but if we don't, then things will be awkward.

tomorrow, i will be going back to my grandmother's house. i'm gonna bring my sejarah book there and study with the chickens. hope they don't lay too many eggs and make too much noise. no joke this time, i really am going to study. really. don't give me that sceptical look please...

we'll see about that tomorrow, and i'll tell you guys how it worked out when i'm back. >.<

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Don't stay in bed, unless you can make money in bed

smile

it's too boring at home. i can't study cuz once i open my book, my eyes close. i'm really wasting a lot of time doing nothing except racing cars. in games of course, not real life.

every morning, i've gotta drag myself out of bed and bang the walls a few times before finding the door to get out...

anyway, i've been thinking and i realise that i'm not young anymore. haha... so, i've decided that i want to pass my 17 year-old birthday, get my driving lisence, and stop time right there. then, i'll be forever 17 with my car and SPM will never reach me. 'smart' plan. like it could ever happen...

to see the world through a child's eyes is the greatest thing one can ever do. i don't want to worry about bills and the-boss-from-hell or annoying colleagues. i want to worry about whether i get my milk and birthday presents. or else i'll scream my lungs out until i have it, and adults will be terrified of me. muahaha...

hmm... i want someone who would shower me with flowers. no, not flowers, make that chocolates... and most importantly, complete my homework for me.

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My computer beat me at checkers, but I sure beat it at kickboxing.

wanna try?

gimme what i want

i got aa ulcer on ma tongue i, so i cant tok popely..souds weird...cant pononce popely oso. but, i can type properly. haha...crapping.

today arh, that cik nur hidayah don't let LM members out of class... got slip also still don't let!!! what's her problem?! we got permission ok?! she wants us to finish copying what crap she wrote on the blackboard first. so Quack told her we finished ady (which is true), she 不爽wor... then she asked us to answer her questions first... shoot la. never read the Bukit Kepong before, how to answer? anyway, with some help from friends, we got the answers la. but kesian liyin, no more questions ady, then that teacher wants her to read the whole thing out... really can't stand that teacher.

next up, felt disappointed today. why so little people turn up? some more 7.30 pm only reach home... so tired... you know, the most tiring thing to do is waiting for something which will never happen. yet, even though you know it would not happen, you still wait for it foolishly because you think that there might be hope. even if that hope is like smaller than microorganism and further away than planet Pluto. lol....crapping again.

tomorrow's my mum's birthday and also the start of the school holiday. i didn't get anything for my mum... no money, no talk. want to buy present also cannot. got heart no money. 有心无钱．never mind la, my mum should understand my 处境．about school holiday, i don't feel a thing. it's like, holidays is not fun anymore... ... there's no fun, there's no point.

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the day your life changes or the day you die rarely comes with a warning.

it starts out just like any other day.